A couple of days ago i caught my friends boyfriend cheating.
I was at a party. I didn't really know the girl hosting, but my cousin did (we're quite close) and she had no one to go with so I went along. I caught a glimpse of my friends boyfriend (let's call him P) early on, but thought I must be imagining things. As the night went on everyone slowly got more drunk and some high. I stumbled from room to room looking for some place to purge, when I entered the master bedroom by mistake. There was a couple getting quite 'horizontal' and I apologised and nearly left when something caught me eye. P has quite a distinct birthmark on his lower back and this mark was apparent on the males back in the bedroom. I said "P, is that you?" The male turned around, and sure enough it was him. I looked to the female excited to see my friend, but she had been replaced by some blonde bimbo. I left immediately. Just grabbed my cousin and hightailed it out of there.
I knew I had to tell my friend, A. So two days later I went over to her house and explained everything. her being so deeply infatuated with P refused to believe me. I tried and tried to get her to believe me, but she still didn't. In fact she accused me of telling her lies because I still liked him. Yeah, before P and A started dating we both had massive crushes on him. i moved on once they started dating, but things have always been sort of awkward between the three of us as P is a close family friend.
How am i going to get through this!
It's hard to break someones cycle. They go about doing everything the same. I don't mean that cycle as in they always brush their teeth before they get dressed, no. I mean the way they treat someone or how they roll their eyes when someones thought vary from theirs. it's kind of ignorance really. They refuse to step outside their comfort zone to help someone else.
it can really make one feel worthless. Well better kick up your boots son, cause we ain't out of the tunnel yet. In a world fill of billions of people I still feel so lonely and worthless. Surely at least one out of those billion cares? Of so then step up, don't hide yourself in the rose bushes! 
I mean is it really so wrong to want to be perfect and stunning? I want that so much I may just explode! but then in the grand scale of things what i want isn't important. It doesn't matter so I may as well not want it. No one cares, and they probably never will judging from how things look. Better tear yourself down before someone else does darling. 
Today has been quite a good day. My parents went up north for lunch so it was just me and my brother. He's a couple of years younger than me, so we tend to argue a lot but not today. In the morning i cooked him pancakes, and he pressured me into attempting to flip a pancake (I couldn't). Then for a few separate hours we did our own thing. Then at lunch we tried to use the new pie maker. His pie was pretty tasty, I'll give him that. Then we mad competitions to see who could do crunchies and push ups for the longest, and how many chin ups we oculd do. Then we watched Gossip Girl, which neither of us really like so we made fun of them all. 
my friend has gotten a membership at my gym so today we went to a spin class. I all most died. I didn't quite realise how intense it would be. At one point I literally thought that i was going to faint. It was that intense. But the instructer was so thin and toned, I pictured her as myself and that i was riding to get that body. Whenever I felt myself slowing down, I thought to myself "You have readers out there who actually bother to read your blog. Come on, don't disappoint them!" Then I would speed right back up. My legs are still burning. But I feel great!