Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Eating plans, dinner and crunches

I've set out an eating plan.
Every morning I will have oats, with non-fat youghurt and boyenberries with a cup of green tea(277cal)
then for lunch I'll have a scrambled egg(74cal)
But dinner is tricky. I'm expected to eat with the rest of the family, but because I don't cook (I don't know how) i have no control over what is being served so I don't know how many calories are lurking in my dinner. I suppose I could just eat all my vegies first, then as I begin to eat the meaty part i'll say I'm too full. or I could ake ages eating and everyone will finish before me, so then i could just throw everything away.
After every meal I will do 100 crunches, no exceptions!
This is it, i'm getting skinny NOW!


You may not be able to tell but that is Nicole Richie. Just look at how skinny that waist is. You can even see a vague out line of her hips!
I have dicovered that Nicole and I have one thing in common, our height. we are both 5"1, and while I weigh 47kg, she weighs 44kg!
Imagine what it'll be like when I'm that size, it will be SO wonderful!
So now I'm getting deadly serious, I'm not aloud to eat more than 1,500 calories a day, and I HAVE to go to the gym at least three times a week, and I'll do pilates in the morning.
I WILL be tiny, I WILL be skinny, I just have too.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Aching Limbs

I'm back on track. I spent two hours at the gym today, and I can already feel my limbs aching so I must be doing something right.

I've decided that my goal weight will be 42kg. I'm currently 46.5kg so it's in reach. I also want to tone up, and get slight abs, so if you have any tips that'd be wonderful!

I've currently only eaten half a basket of curly fries(560cal), and a peanut butter milkshake with friends this morning and had a fruit salad for breaky, so I think I'm doing alright. I probably shouldn't have had the curl fires but they were too good to resist.

Anyway, I've finished exams so I'm officially on summer break now.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Set backs

So after I posted yesterday I went on a binge.
6 pieces of toast with garlic butter spread
1 chocolate bar
10 marshmellows
6 mini samosas with sweet chili sauce
2 apples
14 strawberries
and 2 slices of chocolate cake with whipped cream
I am so disgusting! I make myself sick with hate, the worst thing is that no one knows anything is wrong with me. That there is a disease in my head that refuses to leave and that i can't get rid of it myself, I need help. I need someone to notice that I am not OK, and that when i say "I'm fine" I'm really not, or when I refuse your leftovers it isn't because I don't want it, it's because if I do then the voices will yell at me and call me names.
I'm breaking down and falling apart and no one is here to put me back together again.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Switzerland, diets and christmas

I've managed to drop 5kg in the past 3 weeks! I'm stoked.
my friend and her family went on this diet where they cut out all dairy and fats as they are going to Switzerland and don't want to be fat when they return. i said I would do it too so that it would be easier for my friend, little does she know that I really just want to lose 20kg before Christmas.
Speaking of which i am NOT looking forward too. Every year my family and i go up to see family, and my Grandmother cooks SO much food. little mince pies with pumpkin soup to start off with, then two roasted chickens with onion gravy (she uses liquid chicken stock which is pretty mucch all fat) and cooked potatoes, pumpkin, sweet potatoes, yams and steamed vegetables. Then for dessert it's pavalova(like a giant meringue), ice creams, whipped cream and strawberries, and pekan pie. as well as this there are brandy snaps, fizzy drinks, brownies and an assortment of chips to snack on!
I do not know how I will surive.

Friday, November 19, 2010


So, things are going well. I'm finally starting to feel in contorl of what I eat.
Today my father bought me a calorie filled cram bun. he left the house to get coffee. as i was about to put it in my mouth, i burst into tears. I couldn't stop crying for ages. I ended up throwing the bun in the bin.
i feel so bad.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010


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