Thursday, March 31, 2011

The Versatile Blogger

The Rules:

1) thank the person who loved you enough to bestow you this gift.

2)Share seven things about yourself

3)nominate this award to 10 bloggers you think are badass

4)let your badass bloggers now you love them

So first off thank you sooo much Skylar ( I love your blog so much and this literally made my day. i was gonna come on here and rant, but I'll dave that for another post because I can't be upset now. So yeah, you're amazing and badass!

seven things you may not know about me

1) I have a crush on my maths tutor. He is so hot, and he's british! aaah, I know right!

2) I once made a cake explode.

3) I enjoy drinking by myself mor than i do with others.

4) I really badly want a pair of creepers shoes. The majority think they're hideous, but I envy people who have them.

5) I do have a Tumblr (

6) I have a phobia of birds, and that somone i know will find this blog.

7) I wish I lived in either London and new York.

So now to pass on the award torch too....

so, um, yeah. Thank you so much!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

just Floating

Thank you so much for all your support. I was at a real low point when I wrote that, and afterwards i called my friend. She came over and we talked. It was lovely. I decided i just need to change myself. So I went tothe gym and worked myself real hard.

10 minutes on the treadmill

10 minutes on the bikes

20 minutes on the rowing machine

10 minutes on the thigh weights

10 minutes on the arm weights

15 minutes on the ab machine

10 minutes on the vibrating thing
I am so sore and it's amazing. It's the best i've felt in such a long time. I've also died my hair. It's now a darker brown with black ends. I'm happy with it. It makes me feel different, and slightly reckless. I haen't eaten at all today, and am going out later to meet up with a friend for coffee, which I'm looking forward too.
Thank you so much for posting your e-mails and offering wisdom on the topic. It's great to know that i can lean on you guys when I need someone to talk too.

Friday, March 25, 2011

I'm Unzipped

I'm so sorry. I feel like such a disappointment to you all. I say that i'll do all this exercise and eat less, but I don't. I want to, but the motivation I Had a couple of months ago is gone. i hate feeling like this, and you all make me want to really give it my all. Please help me, i could really use your support right now. My life is a bit shit at the moment, I won't bore you with the details, and i could really use a helping hand even if you're a thousand miles away.
I've never been one to ask for help, I'm more a suffer in silence type of person, but I realise i can't do this on my own anymore. I need someone, anyone to get me back on my feet. I'm broken, and exposed and no one is even looking.
please help

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Getting back on the horse

So since I posted last I've gotten sick. It's not serious just a harsh cold. But the best part is, is that my throat is to sore to eat. I can't even have a bit of soup without a stinging sensation burst through my throat. it hurst, but I've dropped a couple of kgs over the past three days. About 3 according to the scales. So that leaves me at 44kg, but I have a new goal weight. I want to reach 42 by my birthday this September.
It's along time, but I want to do it right so that I'm perfect. This means I'm cutting out high dairy products, such as full cream milk, and cheese (i never really liked cheese in the first place). I'm also not going to eat any carbs, except for perhaps once a week as apparently they do have some good qualities. Instead of breakfast I shall have a coffee and green tea (this kick starts my metabolism, and prolongs any hungry groans from my stomach). Also I'm having soup instead of a solid lunch. Soup is suppose to keep you fuller for longer, and I have already stocked the cupboards of 99% fat free tomato minotrone soup (76 cal). Then for dinner I shall pile my plate high with vegies, and a small portion of meet. Plus teo glasses of water before dinner. But I am stuck for what to do exercise wise. I know that I should do a mix of cardio and weights, but i don't really know how to put a regime together. Please help? I want to focus on my stomach and inner thighs. Any comments would be greatly appreciated. I love hearing from you all!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


oh Gosh, I am such a terrible blogger! I've been so busy with homewrok, and i'm still so behind!
This week has definately not been a good one.
First I discovered that I've gained back the weight i put off, all due to one weekend of complete binge eating and drinking and not exercising after. So I'm back to square one.
Plus, my friends noticed that i cut. I now have to see the counsellor once a week, and i hate it. I've let my parents down. I've done that too much.
I don't even really know why i cut, I guess it was because it was the one thing I could control.
But now I can't control anything! The worst part is, is that no one understands. Absolutely no one I know, knows what I am going through. Even though I'm getting help, I still feel so alone.
Oh well, from this week onwards I will get back in control of my eating. I ahve to have control over something in my life. Eating and school, that where I shall control. I shall be perfect in those areas.