Sunday, April 24, 2011

Some years later and not a soul will remeber my name

Have you ever told someone everything and they still go on as if they don't know? I have. My closest friends and my parents know that I cut and that I'm attempting to starve myself. Nothing has changed. In someways I like that. It means I can go about and do whatever and no one will ever look up. But then I hate it so much, I just want to claw away at myself and scream "WHY ARE YOU NOT PERFECT?" 'Cause that's what it is, isn't it? in order for people to change they have to so mesmerised that they forget the regular routine.

It's hard to break someones cycle. They go about doing everything the same. I don't mean that cycle as in they always brush their teeth before they get dressed, no. I mean the way they treat someone or how they roll their eyes when someones thought vary from theirs. it's kind of ignorance really. They refuse to step outside their comfort zone to help someone else.
it can really make one feel worthless. Well better kick up your boots son, cause we ain't out of the tunnel yet. In a world fill of billions of people I still feel so lonely and worthless. Surely at least one out of those billion cares? Of so then step up, don't hide yourself in the rose bushes! I mean is it really so wrong to want to be perfect and stunning? I want that so much I may just explode! but then in the grand scale of things what i want isn't important. It doesn't matter so I may as well not want it. No one cares, and they probably never will judging from how things look. Better tear yourself down before someone else does darling.


  1. People are ignorant and I am so sorry. Isn't it sad that even our closest seem to not care about us sometimes? Who is there to care then?
    I am.

    ~ Meg

  2. I'm really sorry that you're feeling down. But remember, you are NOT worthless and you deserve happiness! I care, and your friends and family do care, they just need to step outside their comfort zone to help. Stay strong and I hope tomorrow will be better for you!