Saturday, January 8, 2011

Striving to not pig out

Last night I ate a whole 8inch 8 piece pizza all by myself. It was all grease, and cheese and bbq sauce. Then to top it off I had ice cream with whipped cream and sprinkles. God I disgust myself. I really need to get back on track. I'm going to a music festival in a couple of weeks and I want to look all lovely for it, so I just have to lose this weight. I am going to start really pushing myself. Of course this is easier said than done, but I am so determined now. I have a goal, and a reason to reach that goal.
Wish me luck.

I know that some of you are going through a hard time at the moment. Well I want to tell you a story.
Earlier last year a girl called Olivia killed herself. She was in my year, but went to another school. I'm friends with a few of her friends, and seeing what her death did to them was so hard.
They were destroyed. They took a week off school and refused to talk to anyone, and when they came to class their cheeks were streaked with tears. It was heartbreaking.
Olivia had drowned herself in the harbour. She took a day off school, and went to the post shop where she sent letters and gifts to all her friends. I never really found out the reason as to why she comitted suicide, you know, what pushed her over the edge.
But please girls, don't let yourself sink this low. get help, talk to someone. I don't want any of you to feel alone in the world, because you're not. There is always someone there, even if you can't see them. Please, please don't harm yourself. It's not worth it.


  1. Haha. I did the exactly same thing last night. Except instead of ice cream I had chocolate. Good luck losing the weight, girl! Just think of the binge as a learning experience. You don't want to feel that guilt again, right?!

  2. Hi there!
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